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Week 6 begins on the Cape. Doesn't feel like 6 weeks of no work. Not one day have I woken up and felt I should be going to work. Not one day. I have not dreamed about it, I have not missed it, I cannot imagine doing it again. Interesting. I do think about doing something else. When I was in Maine, I saw lots if interesting jobs at the resort from full time to seasonal. I almost applied for a few then thought - cripe! not yet. There are a few interesting things here on the Cape too. I have mixed feelings - pursue or chill? For now, I'm going to chill and work on learning to sleep deeply and for more than 3 hours at a time and heal my sore heart and tired body. And I want to make it down from those high places in my dreams without being terrified of dieing - geez. Now those are worthy pursuits. I am even able to stay up for 10pm tv shows now! Ooolala!
Cold and cloudy today - nice weather to hunker down and work on holiday prep - cooking apps, cleaning my stove ( using Ansell gloves - finally!), finding my Xmas stuff, reviewing my gift list. So many things I can do now without rushing or worrying or STRESSING OUT... so nice. Gram is coming for a week or so after Tday then T and I are going to see Joe and spend some time at Zion and Bryce. Firmed those reservations up the other day so we're good to go.
Good discussion on NPR the other day - "what would you tell your 15 year old self"? Well:

choose wisely
practice good manners all the time
learn to dance really well
learn another language and find ways to speak it often
work very hard
help others - kindness matters
do not be mean
pray
find the gifts
resist thinking negative thoughts - just don't.

Had a great time at PB's party. So nice to see good friends again. Lots of laughs and hugs and remember whens and let's do soons. It felt so good and safe. Many thanks for these friends. PB is fascinated by the birds that visit her feeder. She especially likes the red cardinal, a real beauty. Simple delights for a simply wonderful friend.